so I am really in the mood to vent/rant/ramble about a problem I have. I value this forum as a place with some intelligence as well as a majority agreement on an extremely important topic. Sound, is important to me, or more I find that im sensitive to sound in an analytical way borderline obsessive compulsive. It all started right as I was starting high school. Every high school kid aspired to have a car and have a big sound system in it. The first time I sat in a vehicle that had a low frequency extension with some authority I was hooked it was awesome to feel the beat, to have the music sort of swirl around me I can’t really begin to discribe it. Problem was to be loud and clear costs a lot of money and the most money created the best and loudest system. I never had the money. Today I still don’t have the money. I have had to try and work around the lack of money part since day one, I’m glad because I worked hard to compensate and I’m better for it. It’s been 16 years in the making by now I am an audiophile and it’s a problem. I tried to work for local pro sound companies and could not convince them I had anything to offer. They would let me move boxes for free but not anything technical ever. I admit that I wanted to skip the low man part and jump right in at the technician stuff and no one in the industry would have that so I understand my lack of success. I did the same with car sound and home/theater all same result can’t even get an audience to prove my self in and if I do they pay nothing and want me to do low labor portion of the job. It’s like theright of passage and by the time I was in that place I felt I had more to offer and it never worked out. I have always studied more than these so called pros as well and when I was excited to show that I know a thing or two it was received as a challenge and it never worked out. Today I have been all over the industry dabbled in almost all aspects of system building diy to the core and I feel I’m pretty advanced in my sound knowledge. I am still not capable of engineering sound equipment better than what I see already existing or even beginning to design the electronics or software. I have been having some luck running my bfm dj rig and actually made a few dollars which for the first time I feel like “darn right I know what I’m doing and I’m worth some money” but I am not really good with the administrative function and am not likely going to explode with fame and success. I don’t really do any track scratching or mixing and I’m not a fun enough personality to gain fame. All I have is decent sound from a rig that does not really look the (typical) part. The point is I have sort of hit a wall. For years I was learning and developing my ability to have better and better sound in all places home car etc. I have basically hit dead ends in all perceived directions except to try a YouTube channel. I now know pretty good sound from my experience all over which has only made my pig headed audiophilia worse. Now I can’t just build a system and enjoy it unless it reaches basically that standard that has been set. Any system I listen to or want to build must have a lot of bass and good DSP or I lose sleep about it.
I wanted to build a computer system and my wife wants one as well but every time I try to budget a system that I will diy the price just gets all out of hand. I will set a budget and try to design a system around that ya I’m going to stick to it, but within a few more minutes I think no can’t build a passive system if for a little more I can go active then because if that now this and on and on and on in circles until I get nowhere and months go by and my poor wife is mad at me cause there is still no computer system and sound is my life right I should have it done well in a few days. Like my pig headed audiophilia will not let me build a 100$ rig and call it done but no I mush have dsp and horn loaded sub under desk all adding to $400ish or more!! And I don’t have that kind of money I need motorcycle tires or an awning in back of my house or a new microwave(true story). It’s like I know what real good sound is and how to get it and I have also learned my place in the audio world and am not learning much these days or I don’t see it as an investment anymore so I don’t want any of it...... what the hell man what the hell.
Some days I consider setting up my dj rig in my house as if to be a permanent configuration and just enjoy it for what it is and stop all this madness and move on to needle point.
Anyone been where I am at, anyone actually find the boredom to read this whole wine fest!!!
all I am saying is my audiophilia disease is damaging me to the point that I go an make a rant like I did and am not focused on the things you just mentioned. Shame on me.
